Friday, April 22, 2005

Ladies and Gentlemen.....

You are about to be bombarded with postings of Gracel.....get ready.....

Wow weeeee!!!!!!!!!!! i just finished my 3rd paper! not very confident in this one though, compared to the last two... but hoping i wont have to stay back in the isle for a resit.... [Oh Lord, puh-lease.........]

With my arms wide enough to hug a hippo,i welcome fellow bloggers and my dearest frens and family! Welcome Welcome Welcome Abby, Corn, Beebs and ahmayz (who?)!

12/4/05 " the heavenly man"

For this whole week, I will be writing from my personal computer, my ever-faithful apple.
[Lord, thank you for this gift�K]

A moment�Kheck! Wasn��t this week supposed to be my study week for my finals??!! Well yea a moment away to do some write up wont kill right? I thought I would just put my experiences of my final year semester study break in here. *smiles :)

The week began with hiccups as expected. A lot of pushing of myself to chew on the notes and articles and books needed to score the paper. International Business Environment. Managed to read a whole chapter but not quite finished with the power point slides last nite (mon). I wonder and I start to think, plan and be anxious, will I be able to finish reading all I need to score in this paper? In fact, am I thinking of scoring? Last SEM, final paper. I need to raise my CGPA. I need this.
[Lord, help me�K]

[Tues, today]
I woke at 10am, what a pig�K but forgivable, I slept at 3am last nite. The streamxy lady called. Wanted to install in my house back in PG. I said im only back in May! Well will see how, asked my dad about it, hadn��t received any reply from him as yet. Afterwards, inspiration came for a poetic moment�K. here goes�K

�� When life hangs a milestone on you, trust Him, He cares for you.
When you fish and there isn��t, trust Him, fish the other side..
When love turns on you, trust Him, Jesus came for you.��

Not very wordy I hope, but I still feel it could have been better. Such thoughts help me reflect on life itself, my past and what the future would have been without God.

Took up the book ��The heavenly man�� by Paul Hattaway, and started reading to begin the day. Promised myself that I��ll try to read a book a month, taking it as a good habit and a way to improve my mind. Anyways, it was a book I bought for mom for mother��s day in advance. She knows about it but I cant give her till May when I return home. So I��ll read it first. Heard that it was a good book and would like to invest my money and have it as owned and not borrowed. :)(Thank you Jessey for offering to lend me yours).

Only read the forewords and preface, not that I lost interest, but I need to get back to studying, having spent 15mins in writing this�K:) here��s something that interest me�K

��If you give God the right to yourself, he will make a holy experiment out of you. God��s experiments always succeed.��- Oswald Chambers.

[ Lord I belief�K]

10:04pm 14/4/05
Currently listening to ��Your love is better than life�� by Skillet.

Life is in fact better, knowing that God loves you. The One who made me and gave me my name. I don��t need flowers to make me happy, I know my father loves me. ��He keeps me alive�� =) As I recall, I have recently learn to ��Let Go�� something I had taken onto myself and putting ��that�� down and letting God love me, helped me to begin to focus on the Cross and none others.

"Emotions and a wondering mind,
None of which will bring you anywhere.
Laughter and ridiculous chatter,
Shows a joy so unreal within the heart."

May I say, ��Stop wandering, stop imitating, and stop pretending.��
But ��Start listening, start remembering, start receiving, and start acting.��

��If you are walking in darkness,
Without a ray of light,
Trust in the Lord
And rely on your God.
But watch out, you who live in your own light
And warm yourselves by your own fires.
This is the reward you will receive from me:
You will soon fall down in great torment.��

{�KIsaiah 50:10-11�KNLT}

This week can be said to be self-reflecting, and self-edifying. Had been studying, reading the Bible, additional readings (The Heavenly Man & The Purpose Driven Life), making my time at home here not wasted I hope. The stories had been compelling, and the teachings are helping me understand the Father better. This time around, instead of looking at others, or waiting to be served or attention seeking, I felt contented and satisfied, coz God came to fill that gap. I too wanted to feel the hunger for His word and His plan in my life. And that��s my prayer.

MY Bro and his team of 9 are coming down to Malaysia. I��m so excited! I told him that I��d be joining them on their Sabah trip. Dad and Mom approves of it. I��m glad, but I also know that there are some uncertainties. Pls do pray for the team together with me, for:-
More than Enough Funds for flight tickets to Sabah, (already booked)
More than enough funds to live in Malaysia and spend and to even give it out.
Transportation,(e.g a van so that they can go to their place of ministry.)
Unity and ability to adapt to new environment
Plans to go according to God��s will.

Thank you for supporting in prayer. I belief the Lord will surely blessYou and Your family too :)
18/4/05 2:30am ��The day has become night, the night has become day.��

So often I am unaware of the time and that lead to misconceptions and the feel of just ��flying�� by. Saturday morning I woke up fresh thinking it was 8:30am, while it was in fact 1:30pm! Terrible! My dear clock had tricked me! I rolled and rolled and continued to slumber till my back aches. I wondered, what is the matter? Its only 8:30am and the curtains were drawn; tricking me it was still early.

It was 10:30pm on Sunday, when I couldn��t open my eyes. A thin line appeared where it was once my usual round bright eyes. Ahh�Kthe night is still young but I have not the strength to read on. There are 6 chapters remaining of International Business Environment. I fell into deep sleep with my teddy beside me.

The night before I had been so engrossed with the book ��the heavenly man��. Many times the Lord had spared the life of His servants. But the man ��Yun�� in China had had to endure terrible sufferings for the sake of Christ. His own Christian brothers in Hubei forsook him without a blanket out in the icing cold. He endured horrible tortures and was despised by other criminals in prison. He became a being not recognizable to his mother and wife. Frail, skinny, bonny, beaten, tortured, blood and sweat matted together, disfigured by extensive electrocution.

The stories told were not just an imaginary state of the mind, it was the real sufferings and persecutions of a man called to serve the Lord. In my mind, fear cripped in. Fear of the many sufferings that will come my way for standing up for Jesus. How horrible or terrible the sufferings I dared not think. I am petrified.

But His Word endures forever! Throughout the many sufferings he went through while spreading the good news of the salvation of Christ, the Lord repeatedly strengthened and restores him through His Words from the Bible. Each time he wanted to give up, the verses he memorized surfaced to encourage him. The Holy Spirit became his only friend and comfort. He was determined to die for the sake of Christ! But to those who gambled on his life, they lost, as the Lord sustained him and did the impossible.
He lived in prison 74days without food or water.

��Let Your will be done and not mine�� �V Jesus said. (Matthew 27:42, Mark 14:36, Luke 22:41)

I was deep in thought the whole day. Shaken and challenged by this man of God. Living night and day running away from authorities seeking to kill him for preaching the gospel to the whole of China. What am I Lord? I am but nothing compared to him. I am but nothing compared to Jesus Christ who suffered for my sins. I am but nothing.

��If you do not carry your own cross and follow me, you cannot be my disciple.��- these are the words of Jesus in Luke 14:27.
[Lord, help me understand.]

Thursday, April 07, 2005


Which Incredibles Character Are You?

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Incredible it is....but is it true? i dont think so, comments please...haha.... i think i need to take the test again...*smirk*...thanks to tom for the cute site =)

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Life as it is...=P

Ok alright my site probably looks and sounds babyish to some... akeke (wk...dont laugh at me lah...i want to improve also...i come back you give me classes ah? Hamster!)

i'm rather glad Pheng, my dear friend has gotten the visa. Greenlight to US! hahhaha... sounds too amazing to be true after the waiting and all.... anyways... Corn is in KL for this 4 days and i hope i can meet up with him...but you know its rather difficult to meet anyone in town when you are somewhere in an isolated isle like Bdr. Sg.Long! hahha... it takes 2hours to reach church in Seapark. whats more... you gotta wait for the unsuspecting public bus, which does the 'mary poppins' whenevr it wants to.... how cruel.. gotta wait in the hot sun beside the rubbish dump you know!

anyways... will take some pics with Corn for all eyes to see my beloved Sabah brother if i do~ hehe...and yea.. maybe the nex time i'll upload the food i cooked for the past days too... or rather 'we' cooked....its amazing how you can cooked up something without all the necessary ingredients and yet it still tastes good =)

also... Tom, let me know if you wannna come down to KL to see where i live if you have the time... but i guess not.... coz i m not sure when i'll be moving after i finish my last paper on the 26. oh yes yes... please do so pray for me!!!!!

Exam dates :-
19/4 - International business Environment
20/4- Corporate Governance
22/4- Portfolio Management
26/4- Business Taxation

My gratefullness to the Lord, coz two of my assignments got considerably good marks...beyond what i expected and beyond my effort. REally praise the Lord for it. and Also would like to thank Him for giving me a brand new specs....which is of the same model. the padding had broken off in the other and had been wearing it with only one nose padding....but thankfully they compensated me with a brand new one for FREE!!!

Always Give Thanks!

Monday, April 04, 2005

Why blog?

Anyone with a different meaning and reason to bloogging pls stand up?!

hah... i just thought of the question, i mean does anyone who blogs ever think of such question besides me before they start blogging? i wonder is it for updating your frens or for the sake of wanting to blurt your thoughts out to the world like a open magazine, now that it costs you free publishing here? or the likes of sharing your intimate moments to the world at large so that you wont be forgotten? a sense of achievement?

i wonder too...why im doing this blogging at this hour? why? will anyone see what i write anyway? or will someone actually misuse the details of my blog?

however so far... it has been encouraging to get feedbacks and comments on the first post i posted... and yes we need to stay physically pure for the one we marry for a lifetime...that is as far as commanded by God in His word as mentioned, even though the world perceived marriage as a certain product 'off' the shelve where you can purchase if you like or refund if you find no "fit" in it..... that in my opinion is way out! how can you do that? Divorce is not a solution! and neither is "try outs!" and last but not least... people aren't a bunch of "products" you can trade with. You treasure them with care and feelings even when you dont feel like it....and thats where unconditional love comes in..... where Jesus, started this very truly amazing love for all mankind... unbelievable? Believe it!

Love in Christ!

Friday, April 01, 2005

A struggle for some ppl?

My Boyfriend Wants to Have Sex by Dawson McAllister

"I met a guy last year, and we have been going out since then. The thing is, he has been willing to have sex and keeps pushing me to do it. I know that it is against God's law, but I don't want to wait. If I found the right guy (which I think that I have), at the perfect place and time, I think that I could do it. But if I don't do it now, I am afraid I might lose him. I will hold on as long as I can, but please answer quickly. I don't want to lose him." -- Patricia

You are honest, Patricia, and I respect that. And that means I'm going to be honest with you, completely honest and straight up. After all, we're not talking kiddy games here. I sense you do not understand what a dangerous path you are on. You simply don't realize how high the stakes are in your decision whether or not you go to bed with this guy.

You're well aware that sex before marriage is against God's law. You admit that. You know that it's wrong. I know it's wrong. God tells us it's wrong.

It is God's will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; that each of you should learn to control his own body in a way that is holy and honorable, not in a passionate lust like the heathen, who do not know God.
-I Thessalonians 4:3-5

God again makes it very clear in Ephesians 5:3:

"But among you there must not even be a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity...because these are improper for God's holy people."

That's what God tells you, Patricia, about premarital sex. And about this guy -- he doesn't really love you. If he did, would he ask you to do something against God's law when he knows you want to obey God? No. Absolutely not. He's not thinking about you. He's thinking about his glands and what he wants. And in 1 Corinthians 13:5, in the love chapter, we are told that love "is not self-seeking."

This guy isn't concerned about what's right and wrong. The truth of God's law doesn't matter to him. And again in 1 Corinthians 13, verse 6, God says,

"Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth."

What this guy wants is sex; real love isn't a part of this picture, and that means he cannot love you the way God wants you to be loved.

Something else really disturbs me about your letter, Patricia. You said if you didn't have sex with him now you might lose him. That tells me you are more concerned about this guy than finding and obeying God's will for your life. Quite honestly, you are letting this guy become your God. He is first in your life. That is dangerous territory.

God doesn't play games with us. He makes that very clear. Jesus said in Luke 6:46, "Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" And in John 14:15, Jesus said it again, "If you love me, you will obey what I command."

So what you are doing, Patricia, is mocking God. You are saying that you know what God wants you to do, but you aren't willing to do it. You are putting your boyfriend above God. And you are fooling yourself if you think you can fool God.

"Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows," we are told in Galatians 6:7. I can't tell you exactly what you will reap if you turn your back on God and go to bed with this guy or any other guy. That sexual sin could have any number of serious consequences: broken fellowship with God, guilt and shame, loss of dignity, AIDS or some other sexually transmitted disease, low self-esteem, unwanted pregnancy, stirred up desires which can't be fulfilled, and, yes, even fear.

Patricia, I plead with you. Do the right thing. Ask God to give you power and strength and desire to obey Him. Say, like Paul said in 1 Corinthians 10:13:

"No temptation has seized (me) except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let (me) be tempted beyond what I can bear. But when (I am) tempted, he will also provide a way out so that (I) can stand up under it."

Commit yourself to the truth, Patricia, and I promise you God will help you. Explain it to your boyfriend. And if he keeps pushing you -- if he pushes you even once -- then lose him. Break it off. It's simply not worth it.

Remember, God loves you. With his help, you can do it. I know you can.

Author: Dawson McAllister of Dawson McAllister Live!
Copyright ? 1997, 1998, Dawson McAllister Live!

A New Beginning!

Helo Ha!
A very special thanks to my mother, my father, my brother and last but not least God the Father for giving me this chance to blog!

Well Yippeee!!!! Gracel is finally blogging for the public to see!!! hahahaa.... overjoyed i seem...
but fear not more is to come...will try to dilly dally with stuffs.... anyone know how i can put up a chat box?

mind you....its 1st of April 2005....and it aint April's fool... the only fool i'm gonna be is Christ's!
hahah..... hopefully with a blog, i can keep my friends..."you!" with all the crazy, sleepy, blurry, inspiring days of my life!

God Bless!!!