Saturday, December 16, 2006

Latest Updates!

A peep at my current schedule...

Birthday on the way to Melbourne.
Christmas on the way to Dubai then Moscow till New Years!
Whether to be sad or happy.... really dont know!

But i can say this, i'll be spending a Winter Christmas away from family and loved ones this year.Wished i could spend it with you! May i see snow!!! haha.... Pray i get some really good winter coats!



Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Tummy ache @#!

God is good! Its the day of exam and my tummy has not fully recovered yet.... but Praise His name... that there are no other commplications. Yesterday morn, i puked, and since then have yet to consume anything solid for the whole day....Please continue to pray for me.... need the strength to do my best today. Indeed, God is Almighty and Powerful, I will not doubt His healing power in me as i pray...

For He has brought me to a place of independance in Him..... a longing desire to rest at His feet. That when pain and desolateness arises in me, in Him i find comfort and peace. Though i may lack strength, His grace is sufficient for me. though the training can be tough, i Put my trust in Him. His Love is seen everywhere and everyday! Smile as the new day has COME!

Will i anticipate a new day of His with excitement? Will i doubt no more His promises in my Life? Will i begin to fulfill His purposes in my life? Will His grace never end here...nor His patience. Will i walk in obedience and not deny the blessings He has for me? Will I? Will I? Will I?

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Books, Newspapers and Masks....

I really do respect people who are into Books and Books and BOOKS! i can never sit quietly absorb in a book! Thus it really inspired me when i came across the national library here.... where all walks of life are so engrossed in the variety of thousands of books-knowledge made available in this place! They are really blessed...I might say..... with such facilities and resources....

On a thought...must a child be really taught to read from young? or the very essence of analyzing a book by its contents? How does one craves for knowledge but yet could not attain it? I get sleepy eyed in less than 15mins reading a book i'm only interested in on the first page! Tell me how can i register my mind to do some R-E-A-D-I-N-G ? instead of sleeping????....
ARGH! my brains prob decided to run on shift and decided to shut down on the minute a 'string of word's ' come between the eyes! haha..... funny.....

anyways, talking about reading....i'm so poor.... that i haven't read any book this year. And.... i haven't touched the papers for a month already ! I am so outdated! Tell me the world and i dont even know my geography well! I must be kidding myself! haha.... gotta start picturing the world map in my head.... or not i will be lost! Flying to Never Never Land! haha.... i love that story... and the big flying DOG! Ouuuu Fantasy world.....

Well.... looks like the left side of the brain is more sense of imagination, curiousity and creativity among others? hmm..... u realize that not everyone knows what kind of a person they are. Different personalities could make one person. Different persons could have a zilllion personalities, character and temperament. Many of whom u will identify and many u may not. Masks men and women walk side by side, by and by. The identity portrayed and who u really are is vague and a mystery. Thats leaves us asking.... who is really YOU? Who is really True? When will u put on the mask to love me? and When will You put on a mask to Hate me????

In this World.... many things are unexplainable and sometimes unacceptable.... but there is One God who knows All Things and that All Things were made by Him.

Unexplainable it may seem, Unacceptable at the beginning,
But soon comes Understanding, Arising from within.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

I'm Linked!


How are you? How is everyone? I apologize for the long awaited updates ya. Have been rather busy with training and adjusting to the lifestyle here in Singapore. Thank God i am finally Linked! to the internet world! haha....

Anyways… I live near the MRT station at Pasir ris and so it is so far my most trustable transport system! Gotta face the facts that I don’t have a car to travel around in unlike back home…..hehe…. and most people here are about the same… public transport is efficient here… and people walk everywhere! Haha…. I don’t think I have walked so much ever when at home… hehe…. Anyways thank God for the location of my current home for the convenience of transportation and good landowners. They are very nice really…we occasionally have dinners together, the couple and the three of us who rent their place. And just recently they installed wireless in the house so i could use the internet....nice people or not? hehe....i'm Blessed!

i managed to join some friends to City Harvest Church for the last 3 weekends... Awesome!Like a live concert.... but the Guest of Honor is of course the Lord Jesus Christ! Each weekend I never fail to receive God’s blessings. The preaching of God’s Word is practical and really great to see thousands of people coming together to pray and worship and to acknowledge His presence.....God is the Same Today , Yesterday and Forever more!

My batch mates consist of 9 guys and 10 girls. Yes we have air stewards training with us. hehe….we have 4 female Indian nationals plus us, 3 girls from Malaysia, the rest are Singaporeans. So far, training has been good… it gets tougher each day… as more notes are given and more practical things to learn. We can only hope that on the day of our exam, we’ll score above average and build good rapports with our seniors and trainers. Like all other working environments, there’s always pressure and expectations to fulfill. The only perks we get will be after we graduate with a license to fly! Haha…. and you’ll expect to hear from me…. “Hey, I will be having breakfast in London, and prob dinner in Hong Kong the nex day!” hehe…..

Days are counting by, we may never meet the same people everyday, but I’m sure I will never forget the people in my life who have passed on a great deal of friendship unforgettable and so memorable…. That it moulds my character and attitude for life. Of coz there are those exceptional ones that creates such an impact in my life that Only God knows why He had sent them to me. So much so, they are like angels in civilian clothings! Haha…..

love gracel.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

I'm flying on a jet plane~

hahha.....can u hear me singing? well.. it been the 3rd day since i am here in SG. Awesome trip... good hotel accommodation and good frens to start with.

I manage to check my mails in the Cyber CAfe today...short update... i manage to find accomodation . PRaise God! and still praying for the medical to pass this fri... keeps you updated another time ya.... Miss ya all

Love Gracie.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006


*The Lord My Provider - Genesis 22 :14*

*The Lord My Righteousness - Jeremiah 23:6*

*The Lord My Shepherd - Psalm 23*

*The Lord My Peace - Ephesians 2:14*

*The Lord My Banner - Isaiah 59:19, Exodus 17:15*

*The Lord Who Never Leaves Me - Matthew 28:20*

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

What Jesus Might Say To You
Topic: Praying Without Ceasing

*Main Scripture*
"Use every piece of God's armor to resist the enemy in the time of
evil, so that after the battle you will still be standing fi rm. Stand your
ground, putting on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's
righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good
News, so that you will be fully prepared. In every battle you will need
faith as your shield to stop the fi ery arrows aimed at you by Satan. Put
on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is
the word of God. Pray at all times and on every occasion in the power
of the Holy Spirit. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all
Christians everywhere
." (Ephesians 6:13-18, NLT)

*Other Scriptures*
Luke 18:1-7; Romans 8:26-27; Galatians 4:6; Philippians 4:6-7; 1
Thessalonians 5:17; Jude 20

*What Jesus Might Say To You*
Despite the intensity of a spiritual battle or how strong or weak you
feel at any given moment, I have given you everything you need to live a
godly life and to stand your ground against any attack from your Enemy,

With every piece of spiritual armor you put on, you clothe yourself
with me. I am your helmet of salvation, your breastplate of righteousness,
your belt of truth, your shoes of the good news of peace, your sword of
the Spirit.

But wearing your spiritual armor still isn't enough. If you run into
battle fully equipped but aren't in communication with your command
center, you will lose. You need my guidance, my wisdom, my encouragement,
and my strength. That's why it's important that you pray at all times and
on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit.

Praying at all times means staying in constant communication with me:
When you wake up, in between classes, during a test at school, while
you're hanging out with your friends, when you go to bed. Prayer is more
of an attitude than an activity. Satan loves to ambush my unsuspecting
followers. Without prayer he will catch you off guard every time.

As you pray, avoid doing all the talking. I know you have a lot on your
heart, but make room for the Holy Spirit to guide you in prayer. Spend
time in silence so I can respond to you. But also remember that you're
in the middle of a war, not just a fi ght. Other people face the same
attacks as you. They need you to pray for them as much as you need them
to pray for you.

But there's one more reason why we need to stay connected: I just like
to spend time with you!

Your Source for everything,

*Summary Challenge*
Staying connected to Jesus is more of an attitude than an activity.

*Spend Some Time Journaling*

Taken from "Conversations with Jesus" by Youth for Christ, copyright
2006, Youth Specialties/Zondervan. Order the book
or visit

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Wisdom to do what's right

Thought you might enjoy this interesting prayer given in Kansas at the
opening session of their Senate. It seems prayer still upsets some people.
When Minister Joe Wright was asked to open the new session of the Kansas
Senate, everyone was expecting the usual generalities, but this is what they

"Heavenly Father, we come before you today to ask your forgiveness and to
seek your direction and guidance. We know Your Word says, 'Woe to those who
call evil good,' but that is exactly what we have done. We have lost our
spiritual equilibrium and reversed our values.

We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery.
We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare.
We have killed our unborn and called it choice.
We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable.
We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building self
We have abused power and called it politics.
We have coveted our neighbor's possessions and called it ambition.
We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it
freedom of _expression
We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it

Search us, Oh, God, and know our hearts today; cleanse us from every sin and set us free. Amen!"

The response was immediate. A number of legislators walked out during the
prayer in protest. In 6 short weeks, Central Christian Church, where Rev..
Wright is pastor, logged more than 5,000 phone calls with only 47 of those
calls responding negatively. The church is now receiving international
requests for copies of this prayer from India, Africa and Korea.

Commentator Paul Harvey aired this prayer on his radio program, "The Rest of the Story," and received a larger response to this program than any other he has ever aired.

With the Lord's help, may this prayer sweep over our nation and
wholeheartedly become our desire so that we again can be called "one nation under God."

If possible, please pass this prayer on to your friends.

"If you don't stand for something, you will fall for everything."

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

I fear....

Another email from a fellow candidate for Sq informed us about the good news about reporting in for training in August. So far, five other girls have been given the good news. Slowly...replies are coming in one by one. We will be separated and will be reporting in on different dates. I fear i will receive the last email, or may just be rejected again. However that is not the only thing i fear.

I fear leaving home now. I dont know why or what happen to my enthusiasm in the first place.??? i fear i may die of spiritual hunger and suffer loneliness as not able to adapt to such a change in environment and maybe pressure... mostly i fear leaving my comfort and close knit of family and friends. What can i do?

Maybe if i receive the reply.... it would not be the reply i have expected....i may be disappointed but moreover i know my family will be there for me. But if i receive the expected answer.... i may not be brave enough to go with it... feeling such frailty in me... i simply can't explain how i feel now.

I fear, if the reply comes today, i may not have enough time to spend acknowledgin everyone close. I fear coz i dont know how to acknowledge some even now. I fear i may never find such friendship, relationship or close bond as with so many i have now. The fear of starting anew and being not strong now is intimidating and discouraging.

I try to share my concerns with my fellow girlfrens who are going... but i guess i get no answers that will subside my fears. So, i'm turning to the most High, expecting an answer, hope and assurance that i'll be fine wherever He puts me.

You... on the other hand... need be strong and courageous, unlike me... and press on for the things u dream of. And Maybe u can encourage me someday as we all do with our little experiences. Drop me a line....whenever u feel like it.


Saturday, July 15, 2006

Kasih Allah melalui Yesus Kristus

ROMA 8 : 35

Apakah yand dapat menghalang Kristus mengasihi kita? Tiada sesuatu pun dapat menghalang Kristus mengasihi kita : baik kesusahan, kesukaran, penganiayaan,kelaparan,kemiskinan, bahaya mahupun kematian. beautiful.....beautiful is this song of You~ beautiful.....beautiful is this song for You~
In all in all for You...

So beautiful are You.

Come Lord we pray that the skies open wide
Lord we worship you from afar
As you listen to... our voices sing high above...take pleasure...take pleasure
Like streams of the river flow... the quiet serenity of You
I rest in peace my doubts of You
As i warmth in Your presence
Like the warmth of the sun
I calm myself down in You

So Beautiful are You.
So Beautiful are You.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Sudden Death

If suddenly u were caught in an accident, What Would You Do? You are pinned down under the wheels, you can't move and its raining! Flash backs of your life and the recent argument you had with your mother runs through your head! You know u are going to die....But wait! "I can't DIE!"

Within that very few seconds, you saw what looks like a Endless Pit of Fire and the scorching heat, the foul SMELL of burnt and rotting flesh! Screamings of dead people! What!? "House of the Dead?" Think it crawling in your dont have guns to shoot em now...What now!? Blood everywhere and horrifying faces are looking at you now...They are calling for you to JOIN em! S***! Was that the last game you played before the accident? Sure doesn't fit in now~

Then as u think its your last breath, the next thing u know you are in this white room, cables all attach to you and a man in white standing before you. You can't see his face, the white lights are just too bright and u can't tell if u are dead or being judged! You try to move but the cables don't permit you, you feel motionless. Then you hear the man call in a deep voice, " ABU BAKAR...This is your final Judgement! " Wait a minute... What Abu Bakar? "That's not my name!"

You wake up and you are in a white room, nice curtains and the smell of fresh flowers. You know u are safe...But are you?! Nightmare after nightmares! You have had flashbacks, you felt the endless pains of the Endless Pit of Fire, you were judged in a white room, although it wasn't your name being called...*Phew*

But what you know now is you've been given a 2nd Chance to live your life. You know you ain't going to end up in the Endless Pit of Fire with those horrifying deadly figures. You want to know who the Man in white is and make sure He gets your Name right the next time you enter the white room.

All you need to do is call this hotline - *J*E*S*U*S and talk immediately after you dial the number.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

How true can a test get?

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Updates on me life...

I am working part time in Aus Ed now...administration work, typical 9-5pm work. With extra time to even blog and check mail. Well... its like staying home but i get paid... haha what a Blessing!

Alrite... the updates are, i have gotten a reply from SQ, and it seems i have to refill some documents and hopefully it will pass through the government for a succesful work permit. By the way... the month of june has been a bit relaxing and just meeting up with friends as well. I met up with my ex-colleagues and are just thrilled to find how much we can still 'click' even after half a year we haven't met. But sadly, a galfren who is my ex-colleague and ex-housemate has left to KL to work and i miss ya darling Amelia! haha... make sure u take of yourself over there! and dont forget me k~!

N lately, i have been taking dance classes at a local church grounds. Its been an amazing month of june as we learnt Rhumba, a type of ballroom dancing every once a week on mondays! and also i had a very good partner to dance with. If u are reading this partner, hats off to you! I think u got the talent, besides football! And also a dear girlfren Erin, has been going for classes with me and i am going to be lonely once she leaves for KL to start her research work. We are going to learn Rock n roll nex week! hehe... all for the 70's dance~

Anyone interested to join me, can give me a call and we can go together! its open to anyone and only need to pay rm20 for the facilities, air cond and stuff...its taught by a Prof. and his wife who just love dancing! and they are awesome!

And as for the latest poem before this, it just says what my heart wanted to say, though it sounds depressing to some, i guess our human hearts just cant escape the trials of life...even though i'm not living in the third world country, but i do have some faith struggles and as a fren always says, " Temptations are great!" and if not faced well...can really lead to something worse!

Monday, June 26, 2006

Faith's Struggle
by Sarah E. Haringa

Hurdles are getting higher, God,
losing sight of who you are.
Going through the motions now,
each day like the one before...

Every hour is a test of patience,
each minute a test of strength.
Lord, how much longer must I wait?
Right now it seems you’re late...

"All in his time," so people say,
and while I know those words are true,
with the way things are going, God,
I’ve lost the comfort in that, too...

My hope is being shattered,
burdens press me to the ground.
My once-strong faith is wavering,
like Peter I’m sinking down...

I’m sailing a sea called Lonesome
to an island named Despair.
My ship has blown off course,
black clouds looming in the air...

Lightning fills the darkened sky,
and it feels like I’ve been hit.
But when I ask, "Why Lord?"
you simply say, "Don’t quit..."

Oh God, I’m your child!
Please listen to my cry.
However long it takes,
I’ll wait for your reply...

But if I have to wait much longer,
then you must give me patience.
If I am supposed to trust,
then you must give me faith...

Your answers mean so much to me;
it’s your will I’m striving for.
All I want is a glimpse of home,
to rest at last upon your shore...

Is this what they mean by
"Leap of Faith"?
When your feet can’t touch the bottom
and land seems so far away?

I want to reach out to you
despite my present fears.
Draw me closer to you now, God,
and wash away my tears...

I will rest tomorrow,
your love is all I know.
But in the storms of life, Lord,
please hold my hand and don’t let go...

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Because u care

Just when u know u cant make it thru life... someone makes sure they care for u and walks with you till the very end of life. Making sure u don't get hurt and making sure u always smile with laughter :)

That someone may not always be close, but near. Not always visible but present. Very quiet yet known. Shy but brave to care. Silent and sweet, comfortable to be with and certain to give u the very best in life. Struggles in expectation yet not expecting. Endures with you no doubt, till the very end.....

*Thank you.*

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

What really are dreams?

I had such and such a thought ....What are DREAMS?

Is it a mere imagination of the mind as we slip into our sub-consciousness sleep or is it a message that is from God? or does the devil intrude into this part of us?

Have u tried hard enough that if u think too much of something or someone before u sleep, that u'll actually dream of it as well? But how do we define something so intangible , so abstract as this??? How...??? by just our own experiences i guess...

Have u ever been told, that U were in someone's dreams? You'd asked what the dream was about, as though it would be a telling of the future or the past. You think it could be psychic and tell about ur future or maybe just for laughs....ahhh....

Dreams....these are just a few..... how bout nightmares? Some people have them every nite.... i thank God i dont! Some have visions... of heaven and hell.... u can find them written in books and novels... and some wake up with big big ideas and the nex big thing is this business on the way... how amazing... how terrifying..... how...oh.. how... some say movies or films, horror especially play a big deal in nightmares...hmmm true? i dont know... i dont watch horror! dont ask me to go for any horror flicks k....

Have u wished u were in your dreams in reality?

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Still around in PENang!

Sorry for the long silence, i am still on the island of Penang. I am temporarily waiting for the reply from an organisation to give me the tickets to fly down to Singapore to start off a new life! Hah.... that is exactly what i am doing day by day. Well... the ambiguity is really sinking into my head.... and thoughts of the organisation might just have forgotten us who applied for the job and maybe my medical checkup was unsuccessful! Whatever is keeping them from informing us the nex step?! Patience is really being tested and doubts are increasing in my head... Oh Lord, help me focus on you despite all this doubts!

Hey people,So what exactly am i doing at home? Hatching EGGS ??? haha.... unlikely... my neighbours have chickens that coo every morning,i dont think they need another old hen here. haha... i am but helping my mom make Chinese Dumplings! ahaha.. yeah... me and mom are basicly spending quality time together making em... nice? wanna have a bite? hehe... send me your address and i'll send em Over! Alrite... still dont know what it is? Its 'BACHANG" lah! haha.... okok...i shall take another photo when i open the wrappings to eat, (sorry forgot to include)... and no we dont eat the Leaves wrapping em! It contains,'pulut' rice, beans/peanuts, meat and small dried shrimps.

Tom... Ah Poh ( my lovely granny on the right) taught us to
make em~ hehe... wanna eat the Bachang??? Yum!Yum! We had my granny over to stay with us for a couple of weeks, and it was the chinese season for some celebration when this Dumplings were made for the occasion. Me and mom were self taught by the 'guru' herself.

Besides making the dumplings, my frens and i had a barbeque yesterday at the beach... much like a reunion and a goodbye kinda thing as some are back from studies and work and likewise some going off to study and work. Thanks for making it so memorable everyone!
(Fr top) Alan, Barn, Erin (Middle) Ray, Me, Viv & Sharon (Bottom) Eric

Me, Vivien and Erin!

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Life ....&....goodbyes

Life has got its up and downs.... how do you deal with it?
i find it harsh... when we have to say goodbye to some friends, knowing well u might never see them again. Dont get me wrong... i'm not talking about death, or maybe that will happen. i dont know! i'm talking about people you met and spent a day talking and getting to know that person. I wonder... if the nex day... i will ever see that person again. but hope lives in us,that we might see them again.... maybe not so soon...but ....thats life?!

'Lets not say "goodbye"...unless we promise to say "hello" again -soon!'

the day will come when we shall see each other again... in white robes and smiles. but i silently hope.... we will meet on earth again before heaven. Let us mend the times we lost, let me say I'm sorry, for the things i may have done wrong. LET our frailed connections be made strong again, and maybe let us try to help each other up again, in moments when we were apart, you may have fallen and there was no one to pick you up.

Let music, lyrics and pictures help us remember each other again. Let us make new memories, only old age might erase. Let us build mansions in heaven and help others to build theirs too. I want to remember the beauty of who you are always, no matter how'd you become.

Friends forever still stands.

Friday, May 05, 2006

Gifts are for u and me

#"Oh dear bridget, its me again if u remember. i am on a cross roads in my life, thinking of how i can use my gifts to serve the Lord even in the most unconditional environment! but u have inspired me to belief that those gifts are given to us for a purpose, choosing not to use them, would be foolish and i had been sad not using them too. So just like what Sarahgrace said, i'm just gonna go ahead and give my availability to God. He has His very own purpose for that very gift in me and in You! Thank u so much, u never know how much u can touch a persons life just by what u write. I'm blessed by u! Continue to write beautifully!"#

This what i commented on Bridget's wonderful POST she wrote in her blog. i feel so encouraged, i couldnt agree more with what she wrote. I hope you will be blessed and will learn not to take your gifts for granted....Oh LORD!....i spread my wings and feel YOU as Wind beneath my wings!

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Down on my feet

hey hey... i am down on my feet in KL. Have been wanting to go to KL for a long time since i quit my job at the bank. And then finally i'm down here and meeting up with my friends from dumc and uni friends. i am blessed.

but currently having a bit of the flu since down here and wished i wasnt so that i can eat all the great food and hang out more. so do pray for me.

Ahh.... i forgot! Its the ANNIVERSARY of my blogging history! I posted my first post on 22 April 2005. ITS been a YEAR@! HipHip Hurray! I have survived a year of updating myself and writting about the most important parts of my life in here,and most importantly....i hope i have blessed you with some of my testimonies of how God has been good to me.... and the best thing yet is... that God is still going to be good all the TIME! Praise HIM!

You know... when we reflect back at the things we write or remember the times we went through, I cant help but feel blessed that God has gotten me through the horrids and also the joys. Remembering should not hurt, but instead u should see yourself healed and better than before. I really thank God that nothing runs out of coincidence, and that God has a plan for everything!

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I wish.....

I wish that one day i could write in here that i'm flying to everywhere in the whole world.
I wish that i will tell u more each day on my adventures and what i'd seen.
I wish it could be easy to have wings and fly when i want to.
I wish that i can touch the stars and gaze at the moon larger than my face.
I wish i was there with you and back with you.
I wish it was just not a dream.
I wish that sometimes the wind will bring me there.
I wish that i was the wind.
I wish i could see the Northen Lights.
I wish that when i dream, there is hope.
I wish that i knew where i'm flying to this time,or will i.............~ ~ ~ ,',----<@

Monday, April 24, 2006

You Should Drive a Saturn Sky

You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona.
Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Weddings and Funerals and A risen KING!

Hey guys... its been as eventful....even when i'm still jobless at this time.

April 14th...Good Friday service with my parents at the Berjaya Hotel. The speaker was Rev.Fred Seaward. Watched and heard him describe the death of a great King. Taking the whip and hearing the lashes,we picture this Great King, being deformed as his flesh was taken out of him as the whips with claws ripped his back. Then we see the Cross as He alone carried it on His back, "With splitters piercing His back even more." Imagine the pain He had to go through. They hung Him on that same Cross and He had to push His body upwards so that He could breath as His hands and legs were nailed to the Cross!

This story doesnt end like in any movies... the Hero dies.......AND......the best thing is... He didnt stay dead....He got the keys from Hell and stood before hundreds to prove HE had RISEN from the Dead! And the keys of death in His hands, tells us that we can now live eternally than eternal death and suffering. We only make one move, which is to choose to believe this name called Jesus, whose life God could have choosen to spare but know the story...was given as a sacrifice for you! I trust this story of Love overwhelms you everyday and even cause you to be so curious, you would want to find out "WHY"....dont just let me tell you in this short story...Dont just let anyone tell you the story...Take the book and read it yourself...its called the Bible.

April 15th....the wedding of a couple i had been in touch almost my entire teen life till now. My once cell leader DAnny and my big sister in Christ, Megan got married after a much long courtship...such a blessing that God has bless this union...which also brings back relationships long lost. I always think... a union brings another union...i'm talking about friends we havent seen for a long time coming back for the wedding and meeting up with them to see how they are... its been a blessing. I met up with a couple of friends...those that i had grown up with in church...and those that had gone to other places and back just for the union.

April 16th.... the day the Lord Jesus Christ rise from the Dead! AWESOME! Everywhere every one celebrates God's victory over sin and death~! Its no hoax... its the reason why we believe in God. Because if Jesus did not resurrect, there wouldn't be any reason for celebration.... and there wouldn't be any hope left for this world. Usually during Easter Sunday, many will pledge thier commitment to follow Christ when they get baptised. Its a symbol to say... we no longer live our lives like in the past...but to be a new creation in Christ, new life with Jesus. new meaning to the purpose in living and choosing to say... GOD i want to be part of your great plan for my life!

April 17th... A day begun with news of the death of an uncle back in PUSING,IPOH. My mom's brother in law. Have to go back for his funeral today.... a sudden news to us, however we weren't very close to him though...but its customary to attend the funeral of a relative member of the family. Praying for a safe journey and a pleasant stay in IPOH though the grief of the family.

There there..... all about Weddings and funerals and a Risen King!
A time to celebrate and a time to grief.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Exotic I am

You Are Chinese Food

Exotic yet ordinary.
People think they've had enough of you, but they're back for more in an hour.

Amazing how we call ourselves... exotic, self proclaim heroes, peacefully radical, all-rounded feaster, tenderly outrageous, passionate believer and unbeatable among others. Nope u may not hear these names yourselves, but how often are we taken for names we are not?

Be original, forget imitating others, it'l be so hard for those who might be actually imitating You! haha... thats funny...I just have this message... improve yourself and stay true to being who you are. God made you special. YOu are you and I am me...Let us celebrate our uniqueness and thank God!

Saturday, April 08, 2006

You Are Kermit

Hi, ho! Lovable and friendly, you get along well with everyone you know.
You're a big thinker, and sometimes you over think life's problems.
Don't worry - everyone know's it's not easy being green.
Just remember, time's fun when you're having flies!

Friday, March 31, 2006

The Morning Light

O the Wonderful Cross, what the morning that gives its light. How awesome that He watches us and looks at us.He knows he has made us with substance and not far from Him likeness... How wonderful He is... and angels adore Him and music is played all day and night. No other but Him in all of HeaVen and Earth!

Let the meaning and purpose of life, again fill our hearts where there is hatred, ignorance, unforgiveness, hurt and pain, self-indulgence, pride, intimidation, suffering, hunger, self-torturing, and etc. May these end at the Cross where sins are washed away and our past just a memory. Let His grace lead you through each day. Let His glory so forth shines out from you.

May this Easter show you that Love was not in vain. May you know.....

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

This is the result of the second time i answered the test. How ironic can it get. The first result says i should be a Teacher.
I still dont know what i want to be. But i know i cant persuade or sell, so why do i choose marketting? Can skills be trained and learned up? i mean Selling and persuading. On the other hand, i could become an actor, book editor, clothes designer, dancer and maybe a sculptor... Not DJ, i'm too naive, or art teacher, too little experience in art stuff, comedian? does anybody laugh at my jokes? i cant do graphic design, illustrator or musician without goin to school to learn about it. So thats taht....:( :)

Tomorrow Comes and Tomorrow Goes

I'm living on the side walks of life. Watching as the figures walk by and frames run through. Its a busy day for some, and yet its been a lazy day for me. I am looking...but not joining them. I have yet to get a notch of truth and sometimes i've been the worst i ever am in the day and stay up all night to wonder Why i did that!

Its cruel to the body and sapping the spirit of its strength. Sleep deteriorates and the body functions with half its internal organs asleep. The heart beats with rhythms undeterred and yet the system of the brain plays a different tune. Wonders and worries collide together but when do such companies match up? Bishops and nuns have a vow to keep. A letter in a word describes the word. A common thought brings out the best in knowledge and reasoning. Sometimes, we don’t even know why we reason.

We tend to keep our love ones from the secrets in our lives, yet we run to them when we need them to listen. Trust is overly used and sometimes breached, painful and unforgiving. Stories told and stories heard, lessons learnt and actions responded. We show our care but expectations can be disappointing. Right and Wrong Decisions will be queried of you in the future, yet today we face them every minute. Not making any is not an answer but an excuse and a failure.

Happiness is your effort. What you strife for is what you get. How true will this be? Are we not submitted to the higher authority that controls all walks of life? A simpler explanation could not be as sincere as a rich man that stores up for the winter and decides to have fun all year round, that when he has finished his efforts of storing and keeping, his life is taken from him that very night. Luke 12 :16-21.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Amused by awe of it

Whatever u do.... catch a butterfly and watch it fly. See the blue skies with white sheep clouds swift by. Honey bees making their runs for cups of nectar. Will the world stop to look at nature at all?

Monday, March 13, 2006

Out of the morgue...

Yes... test results... the round spot is now red and rosy...and no you cant have a Bite! hehe... the doctor says its at bottomline after he meassured its redness to be around 1cm. So he gave me a negative! *Phew!....its all over....I dont have Tibi and i dont need to take any X-rays to prove anything. HEALTHY!!!!!! yaya... application will be underway. Will send all the rest of the documents tomorrow. Nope i wont be putting up another picture of a death scene...haha....sorry i scare ya was not my intention...but i take a pic of every part of body that gets some weird treatment...just like my thumb the other time.... come to think of it...why do i have all this weird things? makes me special...*wink* anyways.... my thumb is back to more blacky...but still sensative...if u had missed my horrible thumb pictures... check out the May 2005 postings...the ugly pics are there.

Gosh....have you guys heard any Hokkien songs? this song i'm hearing is horrible! wanna laugh but cannot laugh...haha... never ever ask any hokkien to sing puhhhhleaseeeee..... especially rap...

Out of the morgue is an illustration,it doesnt mean i've been there but i have been in there in my spirit... feels as if its total death... i cant seem to find my future, nothing is certain and i am not having an income. Self-struggle seems to get a hold of me. oh...bah....pray for me yah...

Saturday, March 11, 2006

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image.
On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex.
You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time.
Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.


A certain test i had to do...Mantoux Test was the name. Sounded like Sheltox, the mosquito spray~! Anyways...there i went to the nurses room, they pulled the needle and injected the toxin. He says...(Yes, he was a male nurse)...,"You know what this is, don't you? Its a skin test to check if i had Tibi~ So they'll inject it on my hand and draw a circle....thats what it's all about. He says I am not suppose to rub it off till I see the Physician on Monday. Which is 3days later.

Blame me...I said, " Well why dont you draw a flower instead? that'll look better..." He said,"Well..i will~",chuckles. But He didn't. He left the round spot there and told me not to wash it or soap it.

So i took a morgue picture of my hand to show you that ITS THE TRUTH! haha.... so.... in 3days... i will know if i have Tibi. Maybe it'll swell...or it'll itch....or it'll be black! Will it stop me from going out? Nope! i have a tendency to draw on my hands with the absence of paper... so... it should be alrite wouldn't it???????????????? God give me strong immune system!

On the other hand...please dont think this is some Drug addicts hand after he died of drug injection overdose k...CSI fans are warned...
...haha..couldn't you possibly help to say i'm so good in disguise? hehe....ok...enough ya.... =P

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Helping others to help Yourself

I have this thought. But is it true, or does it work?

Suddenly it hits me that i dont have all the Problems in the world, or so i thought. The world is full of surprises and yet full of discomforts of the soul. A man cries as his only light dies in his arms. A lady moans as she looses her first love. A man lives as though his soul has left him, a girl walks down the street hoping to be heard and cared for. A boy makes his way across a street with tears and finds his mother beneath a car. A daughter sits and waits but her father will never come. A lady looks to the sky and moans her beloved, a man drives aimlessly with no happy thoughts. A serious man is only himself when he sobs at his bedside. A dear sister never forgets her dead brother. An infant will never feel his mother's love again. A patient longing for life not his.

All this happen for a reason, yet you see A teacher making it happen as though the opportunity would have been hers. Her students love her. They pour out to her and tell her their sores and sorrows. She doesn't mind getting her hands dirty with bloody bandages or that her eyes were swollen for crying with them. She is but Someone ordinary. Like us, she has her own hurts and a past. But to her all those is forgotten as she helps to comfort others. Comforting others may just help to solve our own problems.

I have many problems...some i cant share coz they are too secret in my heart, yet some are such that we can share becoz its similar to others. Yet all this comes out of life. Questioning WHY God allowed it to happen will not stop it, neither will denying it do the deal. Choose to overcome it. Be a better Person. God can help. Someday you'll be a teacher when someone falls into the same hole you did a few years back.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

BABY just out

Baby :Mommy, when will i be out?
Mom: Baby, please dont kick me by the side, you'll know when you come out.

Baby : But mommy, I want to see the world!
Mom : Oh, but the first thing you'll do is Cry!

Baby : Mommy, What is cry? Is it the voice i hear singing to me while i'm swimming in here?
Mom : Baby, you'll be good, daddy has been singing love songs to you and not me...

Baby : Mommy, what kind of a world is out there?
Mom : Oh there's everything here. But one day you might hate me for bringing you out to this world.

Baby : Why will i hate you?
Mom : You will hate me for loving you!

Baby : Mommy, I dont understand, i want to come out now!
Mom : Wait, your time will come.

Baby : Mommy, tell me how can i hate you when u love me so much?
Mom : I will tell you when the time comes.

Baby: Mommy, then tell me how i can love you more and not hate you someday.
Mom :Sure. I will teach you everyday by showing you how to love by loving you.

* Just a little something for a friend who is about to give birth today. I remembered a verse that goes like this, "Teach the child the way he should go, and when he grows up, he will not turn away from it."
* Teach them love, kindness, gentleness , patience and most importantly a love for God and they will learn everything else.
* Little Baby, Time will come when You'll find all the answers, right now, just let ya mommy kiss you everyday with love.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

These are the few of my favourite things...

As the music plays and as Maria sings, the Sound of Music captivates me again after a few years back watching it as a child. It is a masterpiece of a good musical...of which i loved. I borrowed My Fair Lady too and thought it good too...i like musicals...its like every part of your life can be sung out and danced with. A story to tell but put a tune to it,it'll be much more exciting!

I'm excited to leave the company, but also anxiety creeps in.My income will stop and i wont know when i'll be able to get a new job. When you were young, it didn't really bother you but now it does. You think of the next step to take. I cant but be awaken of the fact that we have to plan now...bout Who? will i be. What? should i do. Which? way to take. How? to plan to achieve it. I answered Why? because i dont want to depend on my parents anymore...its time they lived for their own again. To enjoy what they earned, to live without worries of us. To let them take time for each other again, to Joyfully serve God.

Hey....watcha think of my room? hehe.... cools eh? bah.... its a showroom lah!

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Taking time to write...

Its pass the month of January and come now the midof february. I have certainly been quiet, ya i know. Just to fill in some events that came pass the last month of January.

All month January was of mixed feelings...i dont remember what happened as though its been long history that your mind mentally erases the thoughts and memories of the past experiences. But the last two posts of January was one sad and one happy. Basicly i had been working and working and feeling worked out! thats just the case for all new freshies out to work. I mean people think banks are 9-5pm business but its NOT TRUE! i have been working till like 9pm these few days, its sapping the spirit and now i am SICK....the flu, phelgm and cough.

January is a bore... lets go to February... i took on the resposibility of being the only customer service at the bank out on the front desk. THANK THE LORD for His years of training and His doing in my life. I could never imagine being at the front and talking in all Chinese, English or Malay at all times and look at me~! I used to be a shy girl... and horribly timid and speechless...but now...THANK YOU LORD for doing the changing process in me. Its been touching 6months now, whereby the probation period will end and my boss will be giving me an appraisal and enrol me permanently as her staff. I dare not think i should continue. From day one i entered, i had been telling people i will quit the job. And Finally...i handed my resignation and will work fully till end of the month to getmy full pay. I was ever happier.

I can tell you, it has been a time of reflecting as i work my last few days with the bank. I see my colleagues as my frens.. where i learned to chit chat and talk about thier families and learn about thier difficulties and struggles at work. I never regretted those moments after completing my work and waiting for a colleague to finish hers. There were a couple of people i respected and there were those that you wouldnt want to go near. Mom says, "There is always a pin in every department wherever you work, you cant get away from it. They prick and hurt you and you still have to work with them." A friend confirms saying," you may have people you dont like, but you still have to deal with them in business." Most people say, working is so much more different than studying. They dont want friends, they want results. What happen to the work together and befriend your local colleagues? In college, we share tips, we help each other out. But now... people have turned to themselves...frens are no longer more valueable than their earnings. Has greed taken the heart of all men?

In the mean time.... quiting the job has been a long issue of thinking over and over again....and now that its done , its gonna be tough..coz its gonna be waiting upon the LORD for doors to open. I must remind myself not to be depressed at home. I must equipped myself with possiblities and positiveness. Take opportunities that come my way...make use of my time. A person has to grow, has to learn, has to work.

If you are finding it hard to live now....ask the Lord for His special grace. He can make the mountains move and split the sea!
I had also been having some frens telling me about their problems and i am wondering why me? when i have my own problems? how can i be of help? Ask God...He may have an assignment for you, or just to remind you, you are not the only person with problems, but lots more out there that have problems and no one , no God to turn too. What makes you?

I also wan to acknowledge God for His repeated blessinggs in my life as he uses me in children ministry. Taking the challenge to be part of the ministry and holding my desire to dance, is much a learning process and rewarding. HE reminded me that i coulddo all things through Christ that Strengthens me. I see myself getting bolder in terms of approaching children, learning to speak to them like adults but simple for themto understand, learning to control the class and learning their lessons before teaching them. I remember my teacher in bible class very well because she is a wonderful teacher! Like in the Bible it says, "let those who can teach, teach!" I know my God has plans for me...and i'm learning to be in His plans not just part of it. The Lord has helped me love children, which i was so scared to in the past. Change can be good. :)

Thanking God is a good practice, less we think toomuch of ourselves, and make pride sit on the throne in our hearts, Its a humbling act to say "Thank You, Lord, its not me, but You in all."

I'm hoping MARCH to have a good start, middle and end, and so on with the rest of the year. GOD BLESS!!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Phantom of the Nite

Mysterious and strikes like a phantom in the nite. A certain time, a certain season, a certain face. It dwells in the lurky shadows that none will expect it to arise. The sun brings not 'it's fear but instead a hidden self. A certain being is being hard to understand, a stumbling shock to those near 'it'. What is it that the form does not even know how 'it' existed. Was it mere adjustment or dawn of a new ? The smell of foulness overwhelms the beholder and will surely affect the rest beside 'it'. The reality of 'it' struggles to break through but time and time again 'it' fails and it brings along 'its' failure wherever it goes. What is 'it'?

Lurking or not....the phantom will not last. A bright light shines dimly in the further night. Its a call...not like any other... maybe it'll help. May fear turn to trust. May lostlessness be found...may all the uglyness become beautiful and may it wipe out all the darkness.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

A Good Start

"You're So Beautiful" by James BLunt plays this song. Its a much better song than what i sang in my last post. I was so encouraged when 'You' called. I didnt expect anybody to care what i wrote. I just wanted to express myself. But this morning i woke up and i hear a fren's voice and there 'Hey!' I find that a New Day has come and whatever happened yesterday or the days back were never gonna come back again. Its over and i shouldn't dwell in the past. There were some things that i 'missed' and i was missing it and i was sad because things were not as before. But thinking over what was running in my head... i know Today is a new day. And a NEW YEAR! So why should i torture myself with memories that won't repeat itself? Sad yesterday but Happy Today. Life is like that. Everyday is a new day!

Wake up in the New Morning and have a Good Start!

Take up the Bed Covers and Rise, smell the New Day. Smile and Thank the Lord for the Sun!

Beautiful People are everywhere!

love you all ....May... ---,<@