Friday, September 30, 2005

I want more than ROSES!

Days a bland.... we Can become negative and sour. But its a choice to change that mood of yours!Thats why i wanted more than Roses could give and gentleness.I decided that i should do something with my 'bland' day. So i remembered a clip of "Patch Adams" playing on StarWorld Tv while at lunch... I decided to dish out my "Patch Adams vcd" from the loot of vcds under the all till the last album. I had decided that i'l need something to influence me positively. And it certainly did.

The movie had many a values that serves true. We gotta improve the way of Life...or our Health... and i checked out his website at "Patch Adams"... speaks of a real man with a real ball of passion and flame.I mean truly...People is what that matters than machine or system or rule! People are important. God loves people. WE are the same, just different in our experiences and surroundings. I liked one part of the movie where he said..." All those people who are patients are doctors too. Each of them take part in taking care of another person. A doctor takes care, treats, listens to someone in need." And thats exactly what we all could do! Man...dont you think we can improve the quality of Life by just making someone else happy? How does "excessive happiness" sound to you?

I'm reminded too that we are human beings, we go through a course of ups and downs,no denial of it. I remember that in those times of downs, i ask for a special grace from God so that i can smile for the whole day. And i know God's grace and love shined through me=). Give thanks and make a merry, cause no one really hates happiness long enough not to be infected by your smile and kindness. If you think u have not enough to share your love around, be like me,ask from God a little love and be of little faith.

I love roses. What bout you? :)

Monday, September 26, 2005

The ugly side of human nature...

Its been Just two days and the weekend is over~! Boy i miss my days as a student...days seem to pass on slower and more meaningful then.

In my mind, the human nature produces so many questions and yet so little answers. Today, i witness my very own human kind showing more of the unexplanainable nature. "Why does man get angry?" A man shouts at a woman for her carelessness, yet the woman wishes what she heard to be less authoritative and more kind. She retaliates and turns her head away, scuffing...pouting and whispers her dissatisfaction under her breath, but loud enough for the man to listen. The man again...being the authoritative one, demands his views to be Correct and mentions her carelessness once and twice and thrice again, caring less of the woman's feelings and the people who were staring at them then. Whose fault was it?
Was it the man who did not care about manners? Or was it the woman who could not take a critism lightly? Was it the people staring that caused the situation to grow hotter? Or was the response by the man and woman that gave a sharp pinch that both could not accept it?

The situation could have been better dont ya think? Why cant the man tell the woman her carelessness nicely and not raise his voice? A harsh comment exchanges for another not the other way around! What you do to other people is what you'll get back! Its a basic theory that everyone knows! But we see that happening too very often. How sad. =( I as witness...feel so much for both of them as they have invisibly taken a sharp blade and had started to stab at each other unknowingly. The wounds gets bigger as each stab takes place. When people talk about 'internal bleeding', i tell you whats worst than that.... its the 'Soul bleeding'. You cant see it but it keeps bleeding. You loose more of yourself as you choose to throw negative words at people.You cant see through medical lenses... but you can feel it. I'm sure i'm not mentioning something that is alien to anyone. Its something we all go through all the time, dont we?

But how now? Will we die? Does it kill like the physical illness of cancer and aids? I tell you it kills you softly and slowly, till you no longer have the strength to live. ITs a struggle. It haunts the mind...hurts the heart and kills the soul.
Wow.... such horrible truths... but you know.... other than the man and woman.... other people get hurt too. The witnesses will have an impact from that incident. It could bring out the positive or the negative. A witness could say, "There there...told you how careless woman can be, the man is right!" and another witness can depict it as "There is so much miscommunication between them, they do not realize what shame they bring themselves." and another invisible witness could say, " I told you they weren't gonna be good to each other... its a victory that the situation has grown hotter! MuaHaaHaaaa!!!" who could that mad witness be???

Dear God, I understand that i do not have the ability to control or understand the very nature of the human being. But i pray for this couple that You will see them through each day with your grace, love and trust. I pray, that you open their spiritual eyes and ears to see what hurt they have caused each other.I pray that the victory belongs to YOU LORD! and never the devil! i pray that those words of hatred and unkind be changed into words of Forgiveness and Love. I pray that both man and woman will understand the meaning of listening and thinking before speaking. I pray that one day they will speak less horrible words against each other and refuse to take offense of the other. This is prayed as witnesses do get affected and i pray that netiher anyone of those affected will practice the same. In Your Name Jesus, Amen!

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Practical living

How when u have a routine lifestyle, yet wanting more than the ordinary, decide to do the opposite of the norm? Practically called to work the land, expecting more as the end of the month arrives, will the harvest be bountiful? Will you actually reap the best? or suffer the failures? Consider it 50-50. You cant determine your future 100%, but you can prepare for it. The results of hard work may never be as satisfying as you want it to be. To accept the things affected is a way to be humble? Or to take courage to fight the obvious truth? What am i talking about????

Its been 3weeks since i started work. I have never thought it will get better. But i still do pray for a good day everyday. and you know what... God listens... and makes me smile =) I face a mixture of nice, smiley, considerate, irritating, bossy, arrogant, smelly, blur, people who think they are filty rich, people who love their parents, people who decide for their children's wealth, people who hate patience, people who are patient, people who speak unknown language, people who are forgiving, people who are not forgiving, people who love to complain, people who share their difficulties, people who share thier experiences, people who were your friends sometime before, people who direct you, people who notice you, people who care to listen to your blurness, people whom you only know by their voice but never seen.... and lots more.

But how can i improve? How can i be more efficient today than yesterday? how can i be more effective to answer the various questions? How can i learn more? How can i not be ignorant or act ignorant? How can i have more friends? how can i offer more than my job requires??? how can i be on the cutting edge? how can i learn all i can that enables me to have some skills that others may not have? how can i improve on my productivity? last but never the least.... how can i improve in my mind and spirit?

I'm putting my dreams aside....probably this moment now is to train me for something greater and bigger? but another side wonders.... you know what if i put my dreams first... i may be very successful... but how will i start? a sacrifice? or obedience?

Anyways... today i thank God that i could get home earlier, with all work done. Today i also thank God that i could have lunch with my dad. I thank God that after the rain the sun came up again. I thank God, that smiles take away people's hurt, fear, doubt, anger, and distrust sometimes.I thank God tomorrow is Friday, and the week is ending quickly. I thank God that there is tomorrow....

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Blogging a promise

hey...i'm pretty alive. Sorrry that my one week's absence turned out far too long. I had reported to work on 1st Sept in a local bank. Taking the post of Customer Service Representative. I practically had to learn from scratch on the various products the bank offers and i had to be the one at the front desk where customers tend to Ask and Ask and Ask! thats why i had not been blogging. I wanted to catch up on my sleep and rest and do other things than sit in front of the comp. I needed the time to adjust to my new life style...but not in a way to forget what i used to do....:) i suppose u understand...i do miss putting up my entries here. I wish i have a job which is less time consuming and more flexibility for creativity. So i'm trying to fill my mind with things more innovative and edifying than sitting in front of the television. I praise God for really... it must be Him who gave me wisdom to adjust and to change. Truly what they say is true..."What u have is what God has given you, What you are is what you can give back to God..."

I made a "promise" to post my pics... here are some of the pics i took at graduation and at the town of Colmar...a much french inspired village that i went to on the hills of Bukit Tinggi, Malaysia. The above pic is my doggy given by an aunty as a graduation present... aint he cute? Enjoy the rest... =)

My scroll awarded to me by the former Prime Minister Dr.Mahatir.

Dad and Mom together with me at the convocation. I miss Tommy!!! (p's: lets promise to be at each other's graduation nex time?)

My final year project mates, Anu and Siew Shan with our finance lecturers, Mr. Val and David. *phew..we almost thought we'd failed our finance papers...hehe...Praise GOD!

My dear roomates when we were staying at Section 17,PJ....May and Jacklyn..Love u galz~!

My housemates...Eason and David....we miss Ben..because he was in the afternoon session so couldnt manage a group photo. We had a couple of fun in the last 5months at Sg.Long...playing computer games, eating our hearts out at the "Chap Fan stall" after class,sometimes we cook and talking all nite and studying all nite...hehe... it was fun...Miss u guys too!

My dearest roomate at Sg.Long. She is sweet, tall and gentle....her mom gave us all a treat when she came to stay for a week. She gave us home cooked food! haha...yeah what to do... our sg.long home seemed deserted from all kinds of pamperment...hehehe...

The Penang girls! haha... we were in the same class back in college in Penang.Ther's Amelia, LeeFung and Aikim.

Notice the twin towers at the background? I edited the pic a lil brighter or u wont see my face. =)

Off with the robe and smarter with the coat...:)

Arriving at Colmar...ish the Malaysian flag gave away where i was.... looks like i'm out of the country eh? definately untrue!

The Beautiful Swans.

These are just some...of the many photos. To view my album, attach email add at comment and i'll send u an invite. =)